i don’t know how to write this… i don’t know what i’m doing… but that’s why i’m here, or at least what lead me here. a few months ago i was stressed out of my mind: demanding job, my first serious relationship, insomnia and no direction (not even One). i didn’t even know where to begin, just as i feel now about writing this blog. but i did. the journey was set forth.
my name is Emilio, by the way, and welcome to my blog. for those of you who are lost, welcome aboard this ship which never stops and is heading to anywhere, everywhere, and nowhere. our destination is a place of everlasting change, a voyage i never thought to take part in but is inevitable in this abstract process we call ‘life’.
who i was or thought i was was far from the truth. understanding this idea is what lead me to discovering the place of the ‘known’ (as opposed to the unknown). this was the land of familiarity, home of confidence, zone of the comfort. a place known for its complacency and conformity, where one thinks he is moving forward but is, in fact, standing still (and in some cases, moving backwards). this place which i was so accustomed to living in was where my ‘stuck-ness’ resided (no sh*t).
it was a small, narrow tunnel, or at least to me it seemed that way. i felt like i couldn’t breath and was in too deep- the ‘sunken place’. oddly, i had always been there (or should i say ‘here’) but it was getting darker and darker, i needed a way out, a ladder of some sort. so i climbed and elevated thru the literature which i seemed to condemn in my previous time of existence. but if there were ever a time to disregard the past, ‘the time is now my child‘ (*Ab-Soul voice*). there is no other ‘time’ or instance anyways, so f*ck it.
this elevation did not come without effort, however. countless hours and research has been, and continue to be, done on the climb up and out. not only did this newly accrued knowledge guide me thru but has also kept me afloat from falling back in. ‘I know that I know nothing’ as Plato says it best. this saying alone is the fundamental idea which pushes me to explore the unknown and continue to grow and learn, which is the only way out and to stay out.
‘Sunken Place’ from Get Out (2017)
so this is where i’m at now: continuing these positive habits which have freed me from my own tyranny which i placed upon myself, thru the influence of others (where my influencers at?). i still don’t have it mapped out, yet, but i do know what is not the way, which is where i have gone before, the past. persistence and consistence are the keys to obtaining this order of consciousness and avoiding that dreadful past.
the mission of this blog is to help those just as lost as i was (or still am). for those that want to reach and realEYES their potential. for those that want to escape the shackles society has placed on us and want to live freely among ourselves. for those that just want to be aware and become more knowledgeable of our very existence. to unlearn the ‘miseducation’ we’ve been stressed to integrate into our lives and, in essence, to live. and to just live a f*cking great life while improving the lives of others.
thru my ‘failures’ (dique ‘failures‘) and my random studies and reading, i will be passing on some knowledge to thou, for free.99. a piece of my mind for your attention, fair trade right? it’ll be terribly fun. just be here now and forever. and i don’t mean specifically this site, but it would be dope if you stick around.